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I'll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman's Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer

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S. Howell
Reviewed in the United States on April 11, 2025
This was a great read. I listened to it from California to my home in Arizona. It was informative and very well written.
Bingereader
Reviewed in the United States on August 23, 2021
I heard about this book a few years ago and kind of let it slip by. I continued seeing the cover on people's bookhauls and their most anticipated reads. My friend Penelope talked about it this year and how she really wanted to read it so I finally bought the book. Then of course I heard that it was on HBO as a docuseries and I needed to watch it, so I had to read the book first. 5 stars!! This book is phenomenally written. Let me tell you why.In my past I have read true-crime written by mostly men. They were absolute fact based, dry and to the point. Here's the killer, this is how he did it. It was procedure based and most of the time the true-crime was written by the detective who spent all his time with the madman, the killer. So I would go into these books expecting horrific facts and more of a textbook of this particular case and killer. Now....lets talk about the way Michelle wrote this book.Michelle McNamara has always wanted to be a writer. She absolutely has a way with words and its very soothing to read. She takes her time. She really captures the feel, the essence of what she is about to say. Not only was she a great writer, but she had a true-crime podcast that really honed in her skills and helped her shine when it came to killers. A lot of people "tuned" into her podcasts. She would talk about a new killer/ unsolved crime and humanize the story. Allowing the listeners/readers to be captured in the story and eager to find out more. It was like Michelle was telling you a scary bedtime story, but with real facts.Michelle spent a few years following EAR/ONS. EAR stands for East Area Rapist and ONS stands for Original Night Stalker. Those two acronyms are ugly and dull. Not that a killer/rapist needs a jazzy name. But....when it comes to awareness to the public? A catchy name helps keep the bad man close so that way people are still out looking for them. Michelle penned the name Golden State Killer. Her helpful, jazzy name for this very mysterious bad man helped bring more awareness to himself and the cold cases. People had forgot about him in America. Maybe not for the people who lived in the neighborhoods he prowled, but police stopped caring for the most part. People assumed he was dead. Once a killer stops killing....is there still a reason to look? Of course! But, we have new killers everyday. Sometimes those cold cases stay cold cases. Michelle however wanted....needed more. She felt a deep connection to this case (maybe because she was raped herself when she was younger). She kept the momentum alive to catch this guy.The book is broken up into 3 parts. Part one describes the different areas the rapist chose to pursue his victims. At first it was just peeping into their windows (he only ever attacked people in one -story homes), then he started raping. At first it was just girls when they were home alone, then he upped his game and started raping women while their spouses were home. Tying up the husband/boyfriend, while he raped the women. Eventually that was not enough thrill for him. After 50 rapes the Golden State Killer started killing his victims so there wouldn't be anymore witnesses to describe what he looked like. He ended up killing 10 people.Part two we follow Michelle on the ways she tried to help the detectives solve this case. She was apart of a forum exclusively working on solving this four decade long cold case. These public sleuths or civilian detectives really helped the police figure out different angles. They had everything mapped out. They cross referenced all the cases. Putting people with the similar attacks in the same boxes. Over the years they figured out that attacks that were not assumed was from EAR/ONS...really were the work of the same man. The section also talks about how the old detectives traced their findings through early DNA.Part three is the aftermath. This section was written after Michelle died. Her husband, along with the civilian detectives and real detectives helped finish this part of the book for her. They told their stories to the editor that put the rest of the book together. It's sad that Michelle didn't get to see how much she helped solve this case and how she effected the ones surrounding this case.The book as a whole was wonderfully written not only because Michelle has a way with words, but because she focused a lot on the victims. They weren't just some names on a sheet. They were and are, flesh and blood people. Their stories are important and Michelle in her own gracious way, told these stories to the masses. She allowed the victims privacy by not giving us their real name, but also by being so delicate with the way she told it. She didn't glamorize their unfortunate situation. She was trustworthy. The victims could feel that she only wanted to help, not get money off of their stories and so they told them. And she did a great job speaking for them.I'm at the point of rambling now. If you have never picked up a true-crime before, I'd pick this one up. It's written like fiction with all the emotional parts and like a non-fiction with all the technical parts. It's just so well written. Once you are done, go and watch the docuseries on HBO. It was directed so well. I just loved having the faces to the names that I read about in the book.
Sara Muñoz
Reviewed in Mexico on October 20, 2021
Me gustó mucho la serie, por eso compré el libro para mi mamá, la calidad de la cubierta no es muy buena, pero todo lo demás se ve bien.
Sunniva Andersen
Reviewed in Australia on June 7, 2019
Very big fan of this book, very detailed and leaves out no uncomfortable fact. It leaves you wondering and interested, as matters like this should. A great read for yourself or as a present!
Else DM
Reviewed in Germany on February 24, 2019
Heel goed boek voor lezers die van true crime houden. Het boek leest heel vlot en houd je bijna tot het einde in de ban. Bij de laatste paar hoofdstukken voel je dat de schrijvers die het van haar overnamen, zochten naar een gelast einde. Maar het boek blijft krachtig en een goede samenvatting van de golden state killer.
The Quin
Reviewed in Spain on January 23, 2019
Great read if you enjoy real life crime detection , well written and well finished by Ghost writers after authors sudden death , in my opinion to fully enjoy this book do not google the outcome till your finished !! The book itself is the authors obsession with a long unsolved cold case of 12 murder and up-to 50 rapes committed over a long period of time in the USA , she revisits the evidence , talks to the detectives past and present and the introduction of DNA as a new technology in crime detection , her only wish was the guy would be caught not important who caught him
S A Zachariah
Reviewed in India on May 12, 2018
Deeply researched and soul searched writing. Michelle McNamara draws you into the people behind the tags of victim/ investigator / witness / family.. gripping read
Bonnie Brody
Reviewed in the United States on March 28, 2018
This non-fiction crime book follows one woman's obsession with a serial killer. Michelle McNamara had been trying to find out the identification of the Golden State Killer for more than ten years. Through her blog, police reports, newspaper accounts, witnesses and cooperation with law enforcement, the author stayed on the trail of this heinous killer whose crimes escalated from break-ins, burglaries and rapes to murder. He struck throughout northern California and appeared to choose his victims carefully.Ms. McNamara appeared to have a natural affinity for police investigation and even cultivated close relationships with the detectives on this case who were willing to share their information with her. The killer had a similar M.O. in his crimes. He'd steal items of little worth but of emotional meaning to his victims. He always wore a mask, changed his voice from its natural state to a higher and more shrill speech. His sexual crimes appeared to be similar with all his victims and they noted that he was minimally endowed. From the author's investigation, it seemed like the killer stalked his victims and was familiar with their schedules and habits.While I enjoyed this macabre book, I missed knowing more about the author who died of a multiple drug overdose before the book was published. Did her investigation drive her to using drugs or was she a chronic user. How come no one, especially her husband, notice that she was under the influence of strong opiates and benzodiazepines. I realize that sometimes people who use fly under the radar but this seems somewhat puzzling to me. Did her investigation cause her to take her own life? I asked myself these questions and wished they had been addressed in the book. I wanted to know more about the author and the driving force behind this book.The book reads like a novel. My only criticism is that after a while the details seem to pile up, one after the other more like a police report than interesting data for the reader. On the whole, this is a fascinating look at a demented and dangerous serial killer.Addendum: 4/25/18 - I read today that the Golden Gate Killer/East Bay killer has been identified. The author was right when she considered that he was a police officer or somehow connected to the police. I wish she had lived long enough to revel in his capture.